I can't take it out on him ...

Lately I've been feeling underappreciated and lonely practically all the time and it's really getting to me. Part of it is Hart's crazy work schedule that pretty much keeps us from getting real quality time together. The only day we ever have to spend together is Saturdays which is over half taken up by synagogue. Not that I think we should stop going to synagogue, but when it's the only time we have together and I have to share it with all the people there when I just want to grab him by the arm and run away it's just hard. I love synagogue, the worship I feel there is amazing, but this past week it was lacking. I tried to focus on G-d, but all I could focus on was me - how I looked, sounded, etc. I don't know what is wrong with me. I know I need to get more exercise and eat better. I'm working on the eating, but getting more exercise is tough when it's something that Hart and I usually do together and we don't have the time. What I really need is to go rock climbing. Just lose myself in the challenge and the feel of the rock under my hands. If only I knew where to go and had someone to go with.